I have been terrible about updating! I flew to NY to meet my IP’s in person for the first time and do our first round of inseminations at their house. I had a fabulous time, I love my IM even more in person, we had so much fun shopping and eating and eating some more :) My IF was notably uncomfortable, I spent about 15 minutes total with him over my 3 day trip, but he seemed very nice.
We inseminated the evening of my arrival, which was difficult; my IF had some performance anxiety and was in their bedroom for over an hour! The next 2 evenings were a lot easier. I put an instead cup in after each insemination and kept it in overnight. Now I am waiting, and am currently 8 dpo. I cheated and went in for an early beta yesterday, which was completely negative 0.0, so I am not feeling very sure about this cycle.
I have always gotten pregnant on the very first cycle with my other 3 surrogacy’s, so I feel like a bit of a failure. I know it’s not over until AF shows her ugly face, but I do not feel pregnant. I had a good amount of cramps the first few days, but now I feel completely normal, my temps are well below baseline and have been for several days. No faint lines on pregnancy tests, my beta being a flat zero, in all my other pregnancies I was at least a 0.5 by 6dpo. I am re-testing next week, but expect it will be zero as well.
In the meantime I am acting pregnant, taking vitamins, using my progesterone and waiting for any symptoms or sign, and of course peeing like crazy on 4 different brands of pregnancy tests. I am hoping my body is responding differently to pregnancy this time around, but my instincts tell me that this cycle was a failure :(
